SoulCollage®

By Anne Marie Bennett

Angry Annie

Sometimes I visualize all of my “inner voices” as residing in a big castle. Each one has its own room and sometimes I visualize (in meditation or in writing) myself there, exploring the rooms and the part of me that inhabits each one.Ā 

I am the one who is so angry I am destructive. I am the one who can’t control my anger. I am the one who hurts others with my anger.

One day several years ago, while exploring my inner castle, I found myself in the “dungeon,” so to speak, and guess what?Ā  There are some parts of me that I’ve locked up down there because other parts have been stronger, or because I just haven’t known how to interact with them.

Angry Annie is one of those parts.

On that day several years ago, I imagined myself taking her hand in the dungeon and inviting her to go with me “upstairs” into my world and into my life.Ā  “Just for the day,” I promised her.Ā  I can’t even begin to tell you what a difference it made!

And it just so happened that that very same day, my husband did something that REALLY pissed me off on a very deep level (not just surface stuff being activated, but many years of stepfamily issues rising to the surface).Ā  As I was feeling my blood boil, I remembered Angry Annie and that she was with/beside me for the day.

It was as if I’d really been set free.Ā  I was able to speak my anger to my husband without being consumed by it, and believe me…. this was a brand new experience for me!

I didn’t do any journaling with her right away. At that time, it was enough that I had invited her out of the dungeon and into my everyday world. It was enough that I was becoming aware of the times when anger rise, and offering compassion and curiosity to this part of me instead of shutting her away in the dungeon of my inner castle.

I believe a lot of it has to do with social conditioning around the subject of anger. It’s not nice to be angry is a message that seems to be prevalent.Ā  Growing up, I saw my mother lash out with her anger…. and I saw my father repress his completely.Ā  I chose his way because her way was hurtful.Ā  But I have learned that there is a different way.Ā 

At first I was actually afraid of Angry Annie, but now I see that she isn’t here to hurt me or anyone else in my life. She is here to shine light on injustice and to help me forge the way to my own best self.

Have you made a card for the part of you who feels the emotion of anger now and then? My card, above, shows Angry Annie out of balance. I still need to make a card for her when she is IN balance. There is something powerful about anger in balance as a way to fairness and justice and a righting of wrongs.

Share with me below! I’d love to hear your thoughts on this subject and how you go about keeping your inner Angry One in balance.

Cat Whisperer’s Wisdom on Aging

After watching my mother-in-law’s slow decline and eventual death last year, I turned to my deck for help/guidance with my own aging process. This card in particular spoke wisdom and clarity.

Who Are You?

I am the one who loves cats and holds them close to my heart.

I am the one who understands cats.

am the one who has been blessed over the years with the safe-keeping of five cats (and one dog).

I am the one who receives comfort and peace from the felines who have joined me on my journey.

What Do You Have to Say to Me Today?

What I say to you about your aging is this…. you have watched four of those cats (and one dog) as they aged, and you have guided them through their own aging process. The cat currently in your safe-keeping is showing preliminary signs of aging now.

You have learning that there is no stopping the aging, no matter what you do.

I urge you to care for your own body and spirit as carefully and wisely and lovingly as you cared for Sasha, Scooter, Minnie, Suzy, Seymour, and as you are now caring for Louis.

Does any of this resonate with you? Do you have a card in your own deck that whispers wisdom to you about your own aging? Please share below!

Animal Companions Invitation

Sacral Chakra Sea Lion

Whatever it is that you’re doing this week, I invite you to consciously bring one of your Animal Companions along with you.Ā 

Choose an animal from your Companions Suit– either randomly or intentionally.Ā  Spend a little time with this animal’s energy beforeĀ your day begins. Ā What does this animal have to give you right now… today… this coming week?Ā  Ask it, and listen for its answer.

How can this Animal guide and inform your work with a specific project, relationship, or aspect of your health?

What wisdom does this Animal have for you as you head into “the holidays” this month?

Invite its energy into whatever is going on for you this month, and see if it makes a difference.Ā 

Place the card (or an image) on your nightstand, or under your pillow and invite it into your dreams.

Don’t have any cards in your Companions Suit yet?Ā  It’s time to make one!

I am choosing to work and play and move with my Sacral Chakra Sea Lion this month.Ā 

Who are you?Ā 
We are the ones who bring you movement and who helps you with the flow of your life’s journey. We are the ones who directly affect the flow of your creativity and sensuality. We are the ones who bring laughter and play into your life. We are the ones who thrive in tandem with other Sea Lions.

What guidance do you give me this month as we move toward the holidays?
Our guidance for you this month is this: Remember the first time you met us- at Pier 39 in San Francisco! Carry that joy and laughter with you this month and it will affect all that you create and share and do. Remember that you don’t move through your life alone. There is a whole tribe of family and friends that surround you. Revel in that community and all will be well!

For more info on the Companions Suit, animal totems, the 7 chakras, and Seena Frost’s teaching on the subject, please visit this page at KaleidoSoul.

Please feel free to share the Animal Companion that you chose, and any insights you received from the questions above,
either in your journal or in the comments below.

 

Craving Solitude- My Archetypal Hermit

Archetypal Hermit

This is one of my favorite cards of all time. Whenever it shows up in a reading, I breathe a deep sigh ofĀ  contentment. . .Ā  that is how deeply my need for Solitude (with a capital S) is rooted inside of me.

When I first made this card, I had no idea what she represented. I only knew that every placement of every item felt absolutely “right” to me.Ā  Her presence only became clear to me after asking her some questions and listening carefully for her answers.

Who are you?
I am the wild feathered one who dances in the forest alone.Ā  Ā I am the one who is at home in the woods.Ā  The trees are my friends.Ā  I am the one determined to remain alone in these woods, in my home in the trees.Ā  I find light and mystery and surprise in my alone-ness.Ā  I find my strength and passion in solitude.Ā  Behind the doors of my soul is where all of the answers lie, and these doors are accessed through solitude only.Ā  My freedom comes from being alone.Ā  I am free here in the wilderness of my Self, to dance and sing and be exactly who I am, to discover who I am, to revel in the beautiful mystery of my Soul’s expression.

What do you have to give me?
I give you a deep yearning for solitude.Ā  I give you a wild imagination for soul-searching.Ā  I give you freedom.

What do you want from me?
I want you to never be ashamed of your need for solitude.Ā  It is more than a passing need, it is an integral part of who you are.

Recently, I drew this Neter in a reading and her answers to my questions deepened her meaning for me:

Who are you?
I am the one who goes behind the door where the Light is.Ā  I am the one who stays there, alone, until I feel like myself again. I am the one wearing feathers. I am the one who is gazing intently ahead.

What do you have to say to me today?
My message for you today is this: I love moving through the French doors and sitting on the sun porch with the doors closed and windows open. I love sitting alone in that small space and being Quiet. This feeds my soul! Thank you for giving me what I need.

Questions to Ponder
Question Mark Over Head
Questions to Ponder

Feel free to play with one or more of these questions in your journal, or respond in the comments below.

1. Did a particular phrase or sentence from my sharing hold special meaning for you? Copy just that into your journal and write about what it means for YOUR life.

2. Are you someone who craves solitude? Has this always been true for you or is this something new? Either way, consider what your own Hermit looks likes, sounds like, feels like.Ā  Seek out some images and create a card for him or her. You might call this part of you Solitude Seeker or Monk or Anchorite or Sister Solitude… or whatever comes to mind!

3. Even if you don’t have a card for this part of you yet, ask it “Who are you?” and “What do you want?” and “How can I help you?”Ā  Listen carefully for the answers you hear before writing.

 

Patiently Waiting

Patient Self

When I first made this SoulCollageĀ® card, it was just the image of the woman looking out to sea.Ā  I just loved how she was sitting there.Ā  After I did the initial interpretation of the card (see below), I realized that she represented a part of me (Committee Suit) that is patient and calm while waiting, so I added the nautilus shell and blue spiral symbol in the bottom right corner to give it an added feeling of patience, calm, and grace.

Patience was never my strong suit, but this card has helped me get in touch with my own capacity for slowing down and letting Time do its work. It’s an excellent reminder to have in my deck about the fact that even though I don’t naturally come by the personality trait of patience, I can activate it when I need to.

Who are you? I am the one with nowhere to go and nothing to do. I am full of patience and abiding grace. I like to sit in silence and peace and let the world go on around me. I am not in a hurry. The world goes on and time goes on, and I am content to let it be. There is a stillness inside of me which passes all understanding, and when I access that, all else becomes unimportant.Ā  I am waiting, waiting, and wanting for something to come to me over the horizon and into my view.Ā  I am waiting, but with poise and calm and grace, and an inner knowing that it will come to me in its own time and way.Ā  I wait for it without agitation.

What do you have to give me? I give you patience- calm, abiding patience… waiting that is without frustration or agitation or anxiety.

What do you want from me? I want you to follow my example.Ā  Ask for this gift of patience, for it is truly a gift.Ā  Notice the presence of patience and impatience in your life… ask for patience whenever impatience has too strong of a voice.

Additional bits of wisdom offered by this card when it has showed up over the years in daily readings:

What I say to you today is this: make a card to honor your Impatient Voice, for that is a voice which is controlling you lately.Ā  Listen carefully to what IT is telling you. Impatience is getting in the way of getting your body back to its natural weight.Ā  I, Patience, can help you, once you remove Impatience from his throne of power in your daily life.

Ā I am the one who sits by the salt water, absorbing its healing essence with my stillness and an open body. I am the one who is healed by the water.Ā  I am the one who allows myself to be healed, who wants to be healed, who is eager to be healed by the water.

I am the one who cherishes the waiting, who knows that this is the journey as well.Ā  You can learn so much in the times of patient waiting. You are doing the work… now be still once the work is done… be still and allow the good things to come to you.