Committee Cards

By Anne Marie Bennett

Saying Goodbye to a Beloved Cat

I am the one whose heart was broken.

One year ago today (May 8, 2021), our cat Seymour let go of his aging, sick body and transitioned to the Beyond. These are SoulCollageĀ® cards that I drew a few weeks after he died and they spoke great comfort to me.

I hope that these Neters bring comfort to your own heart in whatever grief you are experiencing.

This one (left) I classify this in my deck as being of two suits- Committee (the 2 broken-hearted people on the ground) and Council (the Mime of Sadness on the top).

Broken Heart says: I am the one whose heart is crying because I have given my heart fully to a sweet little cat and he has left me. I am the one who is sad.

I am the one whose heart feels torn apart. I am the one who continues to love Seymour even though I cannot see him.

I am the one who is watched over by the Mime of Sadness.

I am the one whose heart will be stronger when stitched together at the broken places.

Mime of Sadness says: My message for you today is this- know that you are not alone in your sadness. Know that others have felt this same tearing of the heart. Know that the Spirit world looks kindly on you for the love that you bestowed upon Seymour and for the love that was given you in return. Know that we are helping to lift your sadness. Open to Our Presence. All is well.

 

Dancing On Gravestones

scdancingongravestonesI am the one who is laying backwards on top of a tall gravestone as the sun rises. I am the one who holds flowers in my hand. I am the one who is tall and graceful. I am the one who is strong and balanced.

I am the one who came to this cemetery to grieve and to honor a loved one who has died. I am the one who honors the memory of my loved one by living life to the fullest- by moving and dancing and buying flowers and watching the sun rise every day.

My message for you today is this- there is no grave site or cemetery for your beloved Seymour. His body has turned to ash but his spirit is still a part of your spirit. You are united in this way for always. As you are with Sasha, Scooter, Minnie- your spirit-felines. And Suzy your spirit-canine.

You are allowed to feel sad whenever that sadness comes. Allow it in. Allow that sadness to remind you what a big heart you have. Your heart hurts so much because you love so much. Grief is simply the flip side of love. So… feel the sadness, and remember that you can honor your loved ones’ lives by carrying on their legacy. Think on what legacies they each left you. What lessons did they teach you? How can you carry this forward in your own life?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Savoring Alaska

My husband and I had the pleasure of cruising from Seattle to Alaska in July of 2014. It turned out to be an amazing adventure!Ā  I wasn’t thinking of it as an actual adventure until about halfway through when our ship turned slowly into a magnificent fjord known as Tracey Arm (near Juneau). Ā Only a mile wide and 28 miles long, this fjord had been carved by a glacier centuries ago.

Standing outside on the deck of our cabin at 5 a.m., I was overcome by the wide silence that engulfed me.Ā  The ship glided along so very slowly at 9 mph, and all around me was nothing but raw untouched mountains, waterfalls, cliffs, and wilderness. Ā For four hours we glided up this fjord and back.Ā  The deeper we went into it, the quieter it got. Ā It wasn’t just the slowing down of the ship’s engines. Ā A deeper stillness pervaded. Ā Even though I could see many others standing out on their own little balconies, all of us were silent.

At one point I sat down in the deck chair to rest, but it was all too raw, too precious, too majestic, and I had to stand up again. Ā What I was feeling reminded me of being in church when everyone is expected to stand up for the Important Parts. Ā I remained standing for the whole four hours.

I made this card when I returned, to try to capture the feeling that I had that day.

I am the one who went on an amazing journey to Alaska. I am the one who was happily surprised by the magnificence of my insights during this journey. I am the one who felt so very close to Spirit as we slowly made our way through the Tracey Arm fjord. I am the one who stands in wonder and awe at the power of Nature.

My message for you right now is this: appreciate Mother Earth. Honor Her. Remember your time in Alaska. Honor yourself for all of your inner Knowing. Stay close to Spirit, wherever you are!

 

Surprise!

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I made this SoulCollage card intuitively. I had been collecting the images for quite a while and they seemed to belong together… they fit together so well when I was arranging them on the mat board!Ā 

I love the feeling I get whenever I draw this card in a reading.Ā  It’s a Committee suit card that represents one of my inner parts or inner voices. Here is what this Neter said to me when I asked “Who are you?” and “What message do you have for me today?”

I am the one who loves a good, happy SURPRISE!

I am the one who loves creating surprises for others. I am the one who is all about giving and receiving.

My message for you today is all about JOY. Stay tuned to all the joyful moments that pop up and surprise you. Some are little, some are big. Allow your DELIGHT in these surprises to lift your spirit and lighten your heart (and mind!). Give thanks for these little and big moments. They are what makes your life enJOYable!

The Perfectionist

Inner Perfectionist

Here she is… my annoying Inner Perfectionist. I call her Perfectionista!

She came up during one of my every-other-daily readings in the fall of 2021 as I was getting ready to dive into 5th draft revisions for my latest novel, Feathers in the Sand. Here is what she said when I asked “Who are you?” and “What message do you have for me today?”

I am the one who wants the gold stars of approval and who stays awake at night when I don’t get them. I am the one who wants everyone to love me and my work. I am the one who makes myself crazy when I don’t get accolades for my work. I am the one who seeks approval and who feels dizzy when I don’t get it.

My message for you today is this- Yes, I want people to like me, but mostly I want YOU to like me! I strive to be perfect and there is nothing wrong with that, but when that is my only goal, it becomes a problem.

So, as you sit down to work on/play with the 5th draft of your new novel, remember that you’re not striving for PERFECTION, just for IMPROVEMENT. I work best that way. That’s my original intention: improvement, not perfection.

This was SO helpful for me during my revision process! Take a moment to check in with your own Inner Family. Is there a Perfectionist who sometimes gets out of control? Trying bringing this part of you back into balance by reminding her that you’d like to strive for improvement rather than perfection.

 

Queen of Denial- Committee Suit

I’ve written about and from this Neter in years past, and she came up the other day in a reading again. Here is what she said to me this time:

I am the one who sits here, poised and pretty and smiling, even though a tree has just crashed through my window. I am the one who is ignoring the damage done behind me.

I am the one who wishes the tree and the damage would go away. I am the one who wishes that I wouldn’t have to deal with all of this. I am the one who doesn’t like it when bad things happen. I am the one who thinks that if I just sit here, I won’t have to face what just happened.

My message for you today is this a question (or two): What are you in denial about? Is there something that you need to turn around and face?

I had a good deal of inner-looking and journal to do after this reading… I just love it when the cards ask ME the questions!