Committee Cards

By Anne Marie Bennett

Judge- Committee Suit

Scjudge Who are you? I am the one who looks down my nose at others if they don’t measure up to my standards and expectations.  I am the one who thinks I’m better than everyone esle because I’m more creative and well-versed and better educated.  I am the one who sees everything in black and white, who is a snob and looks down on those who don’t see things the same way I do. What do you have to give me? I give you a keen perception of other people.  I give you insight into other people. I give you strong observational skills, the keen ability to notice everything about others. I give you the ability to notice when someone isn’t good for you, when you need to step away from someone else.

Are you related to anyone else in my inner family? Yes, I am your Intuitive Self’s daughter. What do you want from me? I want you to listen when I speak and stop shushing me up. I want you to know that I really do believe what I tell you about other people.  I want you to listen to me because sometimes I have valid and valuable things to say about other people.

The Good Mother

Scmother_1 I drew this card today in my Daily Reading, and noticed in my Readings Notebook that she has come up about once a month in the past 5 months!  This is definitely an issue that I’ve been working on and I don’t think it’s a coincidence that she keeps appearing in my readings.

In the past, this is a little bit of what she has said to me: I am the one who reads you to sleep each night, who walks with you on the beach and who holds you when you are sad.  I am the one you tell your troubles to and I am the one who knows how to make everything all right.  I am the one who listens to your happy stories, your jokes, your disappointments, your failures.    I am the one who listens without judgment.  I am the one who picks you up when you fall, who comforts you when you are sad. 

Today, though, I noticed that her message was a little different: I am the one who is your inner mothering voice.  I am the one who instinctively knows how to care for and nurture others, and most of all how to care for and nurture YOU.  Most of your life I have been the loudest, strongest, and best at nurturing others- friends, nieces, nephews, schoolchildren, stepchildren, cats.  Now I am asking to play a larger role in taking care of, loving, and nurturing YOU. 

Allow my voice to speak to YOU now, Anne Marie.  It is time.  I am the one who gives “mother” a good name.  It is time to relearn the old scripts of the mother-daughter relationship.  It is time now to mother your self with love and compassion and the same tenderness that you have always given to others.

Mystical Child

Scmysticalchild When I drew a card from my SoulCollageĀ® Deck yesterday morning, I asked “Who will help me deal with the loss of my dear cat Scooter?” This is the card that I drew, and her voice immediately offered me comfort and a subtle kind of peace: I am the one who believes in magic and fairies.  I am the one who talks to angels and animals, and hears them talking back to me.  I am the one who believes in prayer and who prayers frequently and fervently, with faith.  I am the one in direct contact with the Divine.  I am the one who believes in magic and who watches spellbound as rabbits are pulled out of hats and scarves change color in mid-air. I am the one who acknowledges the Mysteries of the universe, who accepts the Mysteries and loves them as they are. I give you a sense of mystery and awe. I give you the knowledge of other realities and the open mind to accept them. I want you to believe in fairies and angels, and to know that dolphins and cats can talk to you.  I want you to see magic everywhere you turn. I want you to pray and to know that your prayers are ALWAYS answered.  I want you to stay connected to the Divine.  What I have to say to you today is this: Scooter has been gone for a week now, but from the first moment you met him, you  asked for Angel Protection for him, because you knew he was a wild free spirit– he told you this, and you listened, you heard him.  You honored his deepest heart’s longings by letting him have his freedom, and you always knew that you couldn’t be the one to protect him, as much as you wanted to.  Now, today, in the midst of your aching grief, I want you to know and to believe that he has and has always had the Angel Protection that you continually asked for.  I want you to have faith that the Angels have honored your request.  It really is that simple.  I also want you to know that all of your inner communication with Scooter was real. He felt safe with you and he loved you fiercely.  Let there be joy and gladness in the midst of your tears and pain, for anytime a wild creature like this is loved so deeply, heaven is full of gratitude and rainbows.

The WorryWart

Scworrywart I made this card about a month ago because I’m aware of the worrier inside of me. When I found these images, I knew immediately it was my inner WorryWart. However, I added it to my deck and didn’t do any interpretation work with it…. until this morning. My beautiful 12 year old tiger cat, Scooter, has been missing for 2 days now, and even though he’s an outdoor cat who disappears like this from time to time, I love him and miss him dearly when he does.  Last night was especially difficult as I found myself playing over and over in my head every bad thing that could have happened to him. So when I drew my WorryWart this morning in my daily SoulCollageĀ® reading, I wasn’t surprised at all.  His energy has been running rampant inside of me. Here is what I learned from my work with this card today:

Who are you? I am the one who frets and worries and doesn’t think that anything ever works out right. I am the one who grotesquely alters your thinking patterns.  I am the one whose sharp teeth bite and shred your calm faith to pieces. I am the one who devours you with worry and false fears.  I am the one who expects the worst to happen every time.  I am the one who begins speaking in whispers and these whispers eventually turn into panicked screams.  There is nothing gentle and kind about me.  I exist to distract you from any peaceful state you attempt to achieve.  I am the one who fills your mind with sharp prickly thoughts of impending disaster and worst case scenarios. Who are you related to in my inner world? I am the son of your mother’s Worrier. I am Nancy Negativity’s beloved sister. I am the cousin of Waiting For The Other Shoe To Drop. What do you have to give me? I give you protection from surprises. When the other shoe does drop on you, I think it doesn’t hurt you as bad because I’ve prepared you for it. What do you want from me? I want you to worry all night, and all day too. I want you to give in to my power. I want you to forget about prayer and meditation and faith. I want you to toss out any ideas of trusting in the divine order of things, and I especially want you to get that idiotic quote “All shall be well and all shall be well…” out of your mind.

Overachiever

Scoverachiever I’ve been giving myself a crunchload of deadlines lately, for my personal life as well as for my business.  Today I drew this card in my daily reading.  Big surprise!  It’s Gabriella, my Overachiever/Pusher.

I am the one who always needs to be DOING something. I am the one who wants to win, to be the best, who tells you not to bother doing this or that if you’re not going to make money at it right away.  I am the one who hates wasting time, who doesn’t understand why you need an hour or two to sit with your feet up reading a novel.  I am the one who makes lists and schedules and insists that you DO them all.  I am Impatience’s sister.  We are molded of the same DNA.

I give you a sense of purpose and I’m good at seeing what needs to be done and at showing you how to meet deadlines.  I want you to do, do, do, and to forget about all this “being enough” crap.  I want you to keep improving yourself.

What I am saying to you today is this… I am the one who wants you to finish everything on your TO DO list before I let you play or have fun or do something “luxurious” like relaxing with a good book. Take a step back and look at my energy and what it is doing in your life… Notice how my energy can be channelled into balanced action for your life.  I can help you but I need tight reins.  I can help you but I need some boundaries.”