I am the one who relaxes against the backdrop of many bright colorful possibilities.
Who are you?
I am the one who lies here, relaxed and stretching luxuriously.Ā I am the one who is wrapped in colorful rainbows.Ā I am the one who balances on this downward incline. I am the one who keeps my balance.
I am the one who is flexible. I am the one who rests against the backdrop of rainbow-colored windows.Ā I am the one who knows these windows are opening to me to colorful possibilities of what is next.
What do you have to say to me today?
My message for you today is this- rest, relax, stretch your body, do not neglect your body.Ā Do not feel like you have to open every window and poke your head out to see what is on the other side. Ā These windows are all portals to possibilities that await you.Ā You cannot open/see through them all at once.Ā Take your time, rest, relax, let go of the striving, just be with the possibilities and all willĀ be made clear in time.
Last weekend, it was becoming more and more clear to me that our 20 year old cat Minnie was beginning to let go of her body.Ā We’ve had her for 15 years and I know her pretty well, especially because the last 2 years she has lived exclusively in my Study. We have spent lots of time together and I have seen her body slowly becoming more frail and less agile.
So when on Sunday evening and Monday morning, I observed her restlessness, her inability to lie down comfortably, her inability to eat or drink,her physical weakness, the dragging of her rear legs, I experienced a heavy heart and a distinct reluctance to let her go, even though I KNEW that it was time.Ā I’d been hoping beyond hope that she would be able to slip off to Spirit in her sleep, but this was not happening.
To bring myself comfort and also, perhaps, to store up a shot of courage for the call to our Vet, I drew two cards randomly from my Deck and journaled with them, after asking the question:
Who will help me decide what to do about Minnieās end of life transition?
Here are the Neters who stepped forward to answer my question:
Surrender
Surrender/Acceptance– I am the one who is in a complete position of surrender.Ā I am the one who is bowing down to what is.Ā I am the one who lets the waters of life flow all around me.Ā I am the one whose head is facing the earth and whose fingers are pointing to Spirit in the heavens.Ā
What I have to say to you about your question about Minnie is this:Ā she has lived with you on this earth and now she is heading towards Spirit.Ā Allow that to be what it is.Ā Surrender to the feelings you are having about letting her go.Ā Surrender to the fact that life just flows on and on, no matter what you do or donāt do.Ā Surrender to the inevitability of death. Surrender to the love that has bonded you to this cat who came to you so many years ago in need of a home. Surrender to the possibility that you donāt have to DO anything, just let it be.
She Who Weaves the Web
She Who Weaves the Web– I am the one who is Goddess, Mother, Creator of Connections. I am the one who weaves the web of connectivity around this beautiful world of souls.Ā I am the one who is a mosaic, a collage of many pieces and fragments. I am the one who is whole even though I am made up of so many different pieces and shapes.Ā I am the one who is Indra, who weaves the web that connects soul to soul, and beyond.Ā
What I have to say to you about your question about Minnie is this: this web of connections goes on and on into infinity. You are ALL connected though this web, every animal, every human, every living thing and being on your planet.Ā You will be connected with Minnieās spirit through all eternity because of this intricate web of souls.Ā Never doubt its power to keep you connected.Ā This Web exists between worlds.Ā After she leaves her body, you will still be connected to her through this web even though you will not see or touch her gray and white furry body again. Know this.Ā It is absolute truth. I have spoken.
So I’ve been struggling for a few days now with the fact that we’re having a big party here at our house this Sunday afternoon to welcome our 8th grandchild (3rd granddaughter), and my stepdaughter has taken over the planning and the inviting and the deciding who is bringing what, without even consulting me or my husband!
I know it’s her child BUT it’s our house where the party is being held.Ā I’ve been feeling so angry about this, and it’s been bringing up the old wounds of being left out, excluded and rejected from the years when the kids were young and difficult to live with.
Just now, I was journaling about it and had the idea to draw a couple of cards from my deck.Ā Just a daily reading. I didn’t even ASK a question about how to deal with this party issue… and look at Who showed up and what they said to me (unedited)(without even being asked!):
Community (Committee Card) ā I am the one who is part of a group.Ā I am the one who loves being with others, who loves sharing and laughing and hanging out with my tribe.Ā I am the one who knows who my Tribe is.Ā I am the one who is connected to my tribe.Ā I am the one who plays with those who love me and accept me.Ā My message for you today is this- remember who your Tribe really is.Ā Who do you feel most comfortable with, most YOURSELF with? It is not Jeffās family, thatās for sure. THEY are not your tribe!Ā You need to be hanging out more with YOUR tribe.Ā Itās ok to hang out with people who are not your tribe occasionally, but REMEMBER that they are not YOUR tribe. You are causing yourself undue stress by thinking Jeffās family is YOUR tribe. You have not been left out by the members of YOUR tribe, keep that in mind.Ā Keep in mind also that what is happening on Sunday afternoon is a social occasion. You are trying to make it something deep and meaningful, and it is not.Ā It is a welcome party for your 8th grandchild, that is all. SHE is to be the center of attention, not YOU.Ā They love you in their own way, even if it is not the way that you long for. Stick to your own Tribe for that kind of love.
Pacheco Family (Community)- (This card shows my parents and two brothers with me on the left, and me with my two nieces and nephews on the right, in younger days!)Ā We are the ones who are your original Tribe. We are the ones who nurtured you and loved you from the very beginning. Some of us did not love unconditionally or perfectly, of that you are aware, but we did and do love you fully. You are very dear to us.Ā Our message for you today is this- the reason you are struggling with not looking forward to Sundayās party is that you are comparing THEIR parties with OUR parties. They are not the same and they can never be the same. Stop trying to make it so. You are struggling and it will never come to pass. We are part of YOUR TRIBE, dear Anne Marie, and we always will be.Ā You feel at home with us, and we feel your love and your specialness because we are connected in deeper ways that you and Jeffās family are not connected. Yes, some stepfamilies do become Tribes but yours is not meant to be that way. It is a Tribe of sorts, yes, but not the deeper community-centered tribe that you are trying to make it. Stop trying to make that Tribe be something that it is not.Ā
I am blown away by this reading and I have to say I am feeling ZERO anger right now towards my stepdaughter or anyone else in my husband’s family!Ā The blessings and joys and healing power of SoulCollage!
This is a card I made years ago and I am deeply in love with all of the images here.Ā Even though I’ve journaled with this card several times, its meaning and message has always been unclear.
Then Karen Mann came to visit me from Australia last fall, and she led a workshop where we took one of our cards and wrote an Alphabet Poem in the voice of the card. Every line begins with the next letter of the alphabet.Ā Sounded like a good challenge to me, so I chose this mystery card because I wanted to go deeper into its meaning.
Here’s what I wrote… or rather, here’s what wrote itself through me, somehow:
Absolutely
Benign am I.
Can you
Decide to trust that
Everything
Falls
Gorgeously where it lands?
Hear my heated breath
If you dare.
Just
Keep
Listening and loving and leaning back.
My
Name is wildness.Ā I am
One who
Protects you from Ice
Queens and
Ragamuffin warriors.
Stop and
Take time to
Understand that my wish is
Virtuious and clearn, not violent and deadly.
Will you come close to your wildness?
eXactly now. I will show you how!
Yes.
It is very interesting because all the other times I journaled with this card, I was speaking from the voice of the woman. This time, the wild animal was the one speaking!
Since listening to Seena Frost’s commitment to adding more humor to our Decks, I am always on the lookout for images that amuse me, that make me laugh out loud when I first come upon them, that tickle my funny-bone.
So when I came across this cool dude in a martini glass last year, I happily glued him onto this card. He’s never showed up in a reading until recently, and wowee, he had a lot to say:
Who are you?
I am the one who has nothing better to do than sit here in my shorts and eat the olives out of martini glasses.Ā I am the one who is relaxed and enjoying myself. I am the one who does not have a care in the world, nor do I give a damn what other people think of me.Ā I am the one who is comfortable doing things that are out of the ordinary.
What do you have to give me?
I give you permission to strip down to your shorts and RELAX.Ā I give you permission to do whatever the hell you want.Ā So- you don’t like olives or martinis?Ā Try marguaritas and bathing in salt. Or sugar.Ā Or take a bath in a rainbow.Ā I give you permission to do what makes you say ahhhhh….
What do you want from me?
Not a whole lot, that is the point!Ā I want you to lean back more often and just enjoy the moment.Ā I NEED you to quiet down Gabriella (your overachiever) again so I can have more space and more of your time.
Is there anything else you’d like to say to me today?
You don’t always have to be doing three things at once.Ā Lighten up!Ā Participate in your life.
This is a card I made years ago and I am deeply in love with all of the images here.Ā Even though I’ve journaled with this card several times, its meaning and message has always been unclear.