Committee Cards

By Anne Marie Bennett

Killjoy

Killjoy

Who are you?

I am the one who is about to beat the crap out of this woman in the red dress. I am the one who hates that she is so happy and passionate. I am the one who was your inner Teacher, Lucius, in the old days.

I am the one who prefers that you stay under wraps so no one can see you in your happiness.

I am afraid that someone will take advantage of you if you peel off all the layers and let yourself shine, so I am intent on keeping you down.

I am a strong part of your inner world, and I control several of your other shadowed parts.

What is your message for me today?

Remember that as Director of your inner cast of characters, you can take me out of this starring, controlling role at any time.

 

Note from Anne Marie:Ā 

I discovered a unique way of looking at my inner parts through this wonderful book, Soul Play: Turning Your Daily Dramas into Divine Comedies!

It is one of the most helpful, and certainly THE most creative book on our inner parts/inner voices that I have ever had the pleasure to read.

I’ve actually read it several times and shared its premise during many a SoulCollageĀ® workshop on the Inner Committee. I love the imagery of imagining our inner parts as characters in a play, and that I am the director. Many inner shifts occurred for me while reading and working with the ideas and suggestions in this book. Highly recommend!

Mothering the Adult Child

Who are you?

I am the one who mothers you as an adult.

I nurtured you from Beyond as a child, and I nurture you still as an adult.

I am the one you can STILL turn to even though you are “all grown up.”

What do you have to say to me today?

My message for you today is this: Come to me, turn to me, allow me to hold you in my arms. Your imagination is a power that is sometimes underused. Anything you need help with, please ASK me.

Feel my presence. Call me back into your life.

I am here for you always and in all ways.

You are not alone.

NOTE: Sometimes this card speaks to me from the daughter’s voice, but today it is speaking to me from the voice of the Mother.

 

Fire Diver- Committee Suit

Scfiredive I created this card because I just liked the two images and how they fit together even though you wouldn’t ordinarily think they would go together.

A card like this can remain a mystery until we sit down with it and begin a relationship with it by asking it some questions so that it can open up and tell us its story.

Who are you?
I am the one who dives into the fire. I am the one who leans in and allows myself to freefall into the volcano of my feelings, my grief, my pain, my anger.Ā  I am the one who falls into a hot seething fire which burns away all negativity and false expectations.Ā  I am the one who freefalls through whatever happens in my life.Ā  And beyond this fiery volcano is a cool, calm, peaceful sky, and a mountain nowhere near as difficult to climb.

What do you have to give me?
I give you fearlessness, to face whatever inner fires you fall into.Ā  I give you an eagerness to know, to claim, to dive into those inner fiery realms of emotions.Ā  I give you purification because you dared to plunge into the fiery depths of your soul.

What do you want from me?
I want you to go right into your inner worlds, no matter how scary and hot and dangerous they seem on the outside.

Perfectionist- Committee Suit

Inner Perfectionist

I’ve been doing a lot of inner work with my Inner Critic lately, and part of that work included reading the book Embracing Your Inner Critic, by Hal and Sidra Stone.Ā  Their teaching includes the fact that the Inner Critic is entwined in our psyches with two other inner parts: the Rule Maker and the Perfectionist.Ā  I had a major aha! moment when I read about these three parts, and immediately began working on cards for these new parts I’d discovered.Ā  So here is my SoulCollageĀ® card for my Inner Perfectionist.

Who are you?
I am the one who has to do everything perfectly right, all the time.Ā  I am the one who lies awake at night worrying and wondering how I can be sure to do everything perfectly the next day.Ā  I am the one who spins my mind around and around until I’m dizzy with the desire to get everything just right.Ā  I am the one who is centered in and focused on the gold star.Ā  I am the one who loves to get the gold star each time.

What do you have to give me?
I give you the impetus to do your best work.Ā  I give you the desire to do well.Ā  I give you a good critical eye.

What do you want from me?
I want you to always do your best.Ā  I want you to know that my energy gets out of control and keeps you up at night because you allow that to happen, and it doesn’t have to be that way.Ā  I want you to remember that making a mistake is not the end of the world, and that you can learn from your mistakes too.

Jumping For Joy- Committee Suit

A totally synchronistic thing happened right after I made this card.

I went to the Y and spent my time on the treadmill that overlooked the huge gymnastics room.Ā  I noticed there were lots of toddlers and preschool children in there with their moms, but didn’t pay much attention. I read for a while as I sweated on the treadmill, and then one time when I looked up to turn a page, I noticed a little girl in a pink tutu, light skinned and fair haired.Ā  She was bouncing up and down joyfully, gleefully, on the dark blue gym mats.

Then she was running, running, as fast as her little legs would carry her, all the way down the mat, and leaping into a wide bed of foam blocks.Ā  Over and over she did this, that little girl in the pink tutu!

I went back to my book, and the next time I looked up, there were TWO little girls in pink, jumping for joy in the freedom they’d found in running, leaping, flying, jumping.Ā  When I got my stuff together to leave, there were THREE fair-haired little girls in pink jumping for joy in that gymnastics room, and I smiled to myself all the way home.

Coincidence? I think perhaps not!

Who are you?
I am the one who leaps for joy.Ā  I am the one who is jumping for joy.Ā  I am the one who loves frilly girly dresses and the color pink and pretty flowers and going to my dance classes. I am the one who loves getting up in the morning, and going to school, and just EVERYTHING.Ā  I am the one who takes pleasure in moving my body.Ā  I am the one who is pleased with my own wondrous, special, unique self.

What do you have to give me?
I give you joy- joy in who you are, joy in life’s everyday gifts, joy in what you’ve been given, joy in your own unique self.

What do you want from me?
I want you to express your joy a little more each day.Ā  I want you to remember my energy, and consciously tune into it every morning.Ā  I want you to stand up a few times during the day and jump for joy.