Defensive- Committee Suit

June 25, 2008

Defensive- Committee Suit

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Believe it or not, I made this SoulCollage® card intuitively/spontaneously (3 years ago!) because I was drawn to the images, even though they were a bit scary!  What a surprise to let this SoulCollage® speak to me and tell me its story… I discovered a very strong inner voice here, one that has been with me for a LONG time, but that I’d been unaware of.

Who are you? I am the one who puts up armor so that no one hurts me. I am the one who hides my true feelings about what you are saying because I don’t want you to see/know how hurt I am.  I am the one who protects myself with quick verbal defenses. I am the one who is defensive. I am the one who fears vulnerability.  I am the one who covers my true self up with protective, defensive armor so that I cannot be wounded.

What do you have to give me? I give you protection from those who want to hurt you, and from those who intend to do you harm.

What do you want from me? I want you to put on the armor when you are around people who can hurt you. I want you to KNOW WHEN to be defensive and when being defensive DOESN’T serve you at all.

NOTES FROM DAILY READINGS:

10/18/05- Sometimes you are defensive when you don’t need to be. You don’t always have to be wary of an attack.  It is good to be prepared, but your job now is to know WHEN you need to be prepared and when it is ok to let the armor down.

6/11/06- What I am saying to you today is this: it’s all about closing and defending your heart.  I tend to act up when I’ve been hurt.  I tend to act up when my heart has been wounded- that is when I put up the walls and the armor and shields, so I won’t be hurt again. But my real purpose is to protect you from people and things who really will hurt you. It’s your job to know the difference.

9/6/06- I am the one who doesn’t want people to know how I really feel. I am the one who holds in the hurt with the veil, the mask, the armor.  I am the one who cannot be my own true self because of my fear of being hurt.  What I am saying to you today is this: I really CAN protect you when you find yourself in the the presence of people who really WILL hurt you.  It’s OKAY to take off the veil, the shield, the armor, when you are with people who love and care about you.

5/20/07- I am the one who needs armor to protect myself.  I am the one who hides behind my armor. I am the one who is afraid of getting hurt.  My message for you today is this: happy birthday,dear one.  And know that there is a time and a place for using the armor… but most of the time you do not even need it!

1 thought on “Defensive- Committee Suit”

  1. Hi Annemarie, i love this card..it so spoke to me, and i realized my mask is the smile on my face even when people do hurt me..it is so amazing to be getting in touch with all this inside stuff..i am amazed..i opened soul trasures this am and what did i see? the class comming up on grief..my brother passed way last wed and my promise to myself is not to hide my feelings i loved him so much and will miss him unbelieveably..amazing how we get what we need huh?..thank you and hugs, Namaste’ Carol

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