I made this card intentionally, hoping to express a part of me from the recent past.  I’ve been working for a year now with Laurel Mellin’s The Solution Method, (also known as Emotional Brain Training) and the biggest gift I’ve received from this deep inner work is the ability to really feel what I’m feeling and when I’m feeling it!

So I thought of making a card that showed the part of me who refuses to feel anything, is afraid to really feel the messy emotions of life.  Actually, I was never TAUGHT to feel them, and I never felt SAFE feeling them.

Now I do, and I am so grateful.. but I wanted to honor this part of me anyway, because she really is an integral part of my life and she isn’t going to go away.

I am the one who is encased in this glass bubble- safe, protected.  I am the one who is safe from the fire, safe and protected from the bubbling rabble of pieces and parts of you that have strong feelings. I am cool and calm and collected, safe in my womb.  No one and nothing can reach me here.  I am turned away from these angry, sad, fearful, joyful, anguished parts of you.  I don’t want anything to do with them.  They are messy, dirty, bloody, frightening, and I want them to go away. I am the one who wants to stay in this Numb Bubble and not feel anything.  Ever.  I don’t like feeligns.  They are messy and complicated and time-consuming.  I like this bubble I’ve found that keeps me safe from my feelings. I give you protection and safety from the heat of emotions.  I give you numbness to protect you.  My world is not colorful but it is safe. What do I want from you?  I want you to NOT FEEL anything!  I want you to keep me away from those ragged feelings of yours.