Note: When I did this reading, I was deep in grief for the loss of our beloved dog, Suzy. If these questions call to you, I suggest substituting “this darkness” for whatever difficult, dark time you are in the middle of right now.

How do I endure this darkness?

Neter: Bodacious Bod
Committee Suit

I am the one who loves my body and moves my body and feels good in my body.
I am the one who isn’t self-conscious about my body, no matter what I weigh.

You can endure the darkness of your grief by staying deeply connected to your body,
by practicing pleasurable eating, by slowing down and paying attention
to what your female Animal needs and desires.

 

 

What is the potential here?

Neter: Negative Nancy
Committee Suit

I am the one who runs the old tapes from your childhood, tapes where you learned negative thinking and fear and worry and scarcity. I am the one who always sees the negative aspect of anything that happens to you.

The potential here, in the darkness of your grief, is that you will stay in the grief, that you will resist any tool that will help you out of the darkness, that you will feed on my negative energy and get stuck in the grief and the darkness that accompanies it.

 

What is the light that is coming?

Neter I Have a Choice
Committee Suit

I am the one who is being pulled in one direction by a lady wearing black. I am the one who can choose. I am the one who doesn’t want to go with her. I am the one who is turning around and being called in a different direction.

The light that is coming will only come when you make a choice to hear a voice that is the opposite of your grief.

Me: What is the opposite of my grief?

The opposite of your grief is always the love that inspired it in the first place. So in this case, focus your listening ear and your watchful eye on the love that you held and still hold for Suzy. The love, it is always the love, that brings the balance and the light.

 

How can I help the light grow?

Neter: Road Less Traveled
Council Suit

I am the one who chooses the lesser-worn path. I am the one who made a choice to not journey the way that most people journey. I am the one who prefers the lesser-worn path.

You can help the light grow by moving toward it. By heightening your senses and taking one step at a time toward the light, toward YOUR light. And the light in this case is the love that you had for Suzy. So how can you grow that love? How can you move toward it?