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SoulCollage® Suits

By Anne Marie Bennett

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SoulCollage® Suits

Overachiever

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Scoverachiever I’ve been giving myself a crunchload of deadlines lately, for my personal life as well as for my business.  Today I drew this card in my daily reading.  Big surprise!  It’s Gabriella, my Overachiever/Pusher.

I am the one who always needs to be DOING something. I am the one who wants to win, to be the best.  I am the one who hates wasting time, who doesn’t understand why you need an hour or two to sit with your feet up reading a novel.  I am the one who makes lists and schedules and insists that you DO them all.  I am Impatience’s sister.  She and I are molded of the same DNA.

I give you a sense of purpose and I’m good at seeing what needs to be done and at showing you how to meet deadlines.  I want you to do, do, do, and to forget about all this “being enough” crap.  I want you to keep improving yourself.

My message for you today is this… I am the one who wants you to finish everything on your TO DO list before I let you play or have fun or do something “luxurious” like relaxing with a good book. Take a step back and look at my energy and what it is doing in your life… Notice how my energy can be channeled into balanced action for your life.  I can help you but I need tight reins.  I can help you but I need some boundaries.

On the Loss of a Dear Pet

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Scmysticalchild In 2006 when our fun loving, man-of-the-house tiger cat Scooter died, I went to my Deck and said “Who will help me deal with the loss of my dear cat Scooter?”

This is the card that I drew, my mystical child.  Her voice immediately offered me comfort and a subtle kind of peace:

I am the one who believes in magic and fairies.  I am the one who talks to angels and animals, and hears them talking back to me.  I am the one who believes in prayer and who prayers frequently and fervently, with faith.  I am the one in direct contact with the Divine. 

I am the one who believes in magic and who watches spellbound as rabbits are pulled out of hats and scarves change color in mid-air. I am the one who acknowledges the Mysteries of the universe, who accepts the Mysteries and loves them as they are.

I give you a sense of mystery and awe. I give you the knowledge of other realities and the open mind to accept them. I want you to believe in fairies and angels, and to know that dolphins and cats can talk to you.  I want you to see magic everywhere you turn. I want you to pray and to know that your prayers are ALWAYS answered.  I want you to stay connected to the Divine. 

What I have to say to you today is this: Scooter has been gone for a week now, but from the first moment you met him, you  asked for Angel Protection for him, because you knew he was a wild free spirit– he told you this, and you listened, you heard him.  You honored his deepest heart’s longings by letting him have his freedom, and you always knew that you couldn’t be the one to protect him, as much as you wanted to. 

Now, today, in the midst of your aching grief, I want you to know and to believe that he has and has always had the Angel Protection that you continually asked for.  I want you to have faith that the Angels have honored your request.  It really is that simple.  I also want you to know that all of your inner communication with Scooter was and is real. He felt safe with you and he loved you fiercely.  Know that this safety and love continues on even when his body is not here with you.

Let there be joy and gladness in the midst of your tears and pain, for anytime a wild creature like this is loved so deeply, heaven is full of gratitude and rainbows.

Inner Queen

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Inner Queen
Inner Queen

I made this SoulCollage card to honor an inner committee part of myself.  I’d been doing a lot of reading on the qualities of a queen and I realized that I have an inner queen who offers strong yet kind authority among my inner parts.

 

Who are you?

I am the one who is Queen of my inner castle.  I am the one who is confident, happy.  I am proud to be Queen!  I am the one who wears a royal crown and jewels and the royal sash.  I am the one who is a kind and fair ruler.  I own my power.  I am not afraid of being powerful.  I am the one who is respected by my people, not feared.

What do you give me?

I give you the power to make things be the way you want them to be. I give you grace to let go of what cannot be changed.  I give you self-respect and deep trust in your leadership abilities.

What do you want from me?

I want you to OWN YOUR INNER POWER!  I want you to not put up with any “funny business” from your inner nay-sayers.

When did you first appear in my life?

When you started doing SoulCollage, you started becoming aware of your inner authority.  This is when I was born.  At first I was just a thought, an idea, but the more inner work you do, the more you are embracing my Queen energy.

What makes you angry?

Unfairness and injustice makes me angry. I hate it when people or animals are treated cruelly or inhumanely.  I have had to learn how to express my anger without doing further damage.  The Inner Voices/Inner Ones/Inner Tribe who get in my way also make me angry and I need to remember to treat them kindly too.

What about you? Do you have an inner queen as well?  Maybe it’s time to seek out some images and create a card to honor this powerful, authoritative yet fair and compassionate inner ruler.

Journeying

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scjourneyerI made this card years upon years ago but only recently has its profound meaning unfolded for me.  I am seeing Journey now as an archetypal pattern that has always been present for me.

Who are you?

I am the idea/theme of Journeying.  Everyone is on a journey.  Others may accompany you on your journey, but it’s something that only you can do.

Your life’s journey is yours to take, it is your responsibility and yours alone.

My message for you today is this: there are times to pause and rest, and times to stand up and move forwards. Know which is which.  Be sure that you are giving yourself enough of each.

Addiction

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scaddictcouncilThis is a card I made recently to  honor the archetypal energy of Addiction that has been with me since I was very young, in one form or another.  Addiction is a theme or pattern that has shaped my life over the years.  This is different than my Inner Addict which is another card altogether (stay tuned!).

Addiction was a pattern in my family from before I was born- grandparents on both sides were alcoholics. This shaped my parents in that they didn’t drink a drop of alcohol, and the reason for it was always made clear to us.

I developed an addiction to sugar at a very young age and this has continued throughout my life until the past two years when hypoglycemia has had me facing my own addiction and coming to terms with it.

In my 20’s and 30’s I was in a serious, intense relationship with an alcoholic and this led me into 12-Step programs such as Al-Anon and ACOA where breaking free from my addiction to the addicted was a huge theme for me for many years.

So you can see that this Archetype of Addict has played itself out in my life in many ways.

Here is what this Neter said to me recently:

I am the one who has been with you from the beginning.  I have colored your world with darkness and cravings and hunger and need and want.  I am the one who seduced you into eating what your body did not need in order to satisfy the longing of your spirit.

I am the one who was trying to care for you by feeding your emotions instead of urging you to feel what you were feeling.  I am the one who held you to me and convinced you there was no one else but me. 

What I have to say to you today is this: remember our story.  I am still present in your life but I have a different intent and purpose now.  Now, when you feel me drawing you in, pulling you close… know that this is a signal that there is something out of balance, something that needs your emotional attention.  And pay attention to that instead of toe me. 

My best intention is to care for you.  But you now know that caring for yourself involves honoring and feeling all your feelings instead of tamping them down with food.  It is quite a journey we have been on all these years, you and I.  Learn from it.