Last weekend, it was becoming more and more clear to me that our 20 year old cat Minnie was beginning to let go of her body.  We’ve had her for 15 years and I know her pretty well, especially because the last 2 years she has lived exclusively in my Study. We have spent lots of time together and I have seen her body slowly becoming more frail and less agile.

So when on Sunday evening and Monday morning, I observed her restlessness, her inability to lie down comfortably, her inability to eat or drink,her physical weakness, the dragging of her rear legs, I experienced a heavy heart and a distinct reluctance to let her go, even though I KNEW that it was time.  I’d been hoping beyond hope that she would be able to slip off to Spirit in her sleep, but this was not happening.

To bring myself comfort and also, perhaps, to store up a shot of courage for the call to our Vet, I drew two cards randomly from my Deck and journaled with them, after asking the question:

Who will help me decide what to do about Minnie’s end of life transition?

Here are the Neters who stepped forward to answer my question:

Surrender/Acceptance– I am the one who is in a complete position of surrender.  I am the one who is bowing down to what is.  I am the one who lets the waters of life flow all around me.  I am the one whose head is facing the earth and whose fingers are pointing to Spirit in the heavens. 

What I have to say to you about your question about Minnie is this:  she has lived with you on this earth and now she is heading towards Spirit.  Allow that to be what it is.  Surrender to the feelings you are having about letting her go.  Surrender to the fact that life just flows on and on, no matter what you do or don’t do.  Surrender to the inevitability of death. Surrender to the love that has bonded you to this cat who came to you so many years ago in need of a home. Surrender to the possibility that you don’t have to DO anything, just let it be.

She Who Weaves the Web– I am the one who is Goddess, Mother, Creator of Connections. I am the one who weaves the web of connectivity around this beautiful world of souls.  I am the one who is a mosaic, a collage of many pieces and fragments. I am the one who is whole even though I am made up of so many different pieces and shapes.  I am the one who is Indra, who weaves the web that connects soul to soul, and beyond. 

What I have to say to you about your question about Minnie is this: this web of connections goes on and on into infinity. You are ALL connected though this web, every animal, every human, every living thing and being on your planet.  You will be connected with Minnie’s spirit through all eternity because of this intricate web of souls.  Never doubt its power to keep you connected.  This Web exists between worlds.  After she leaves her body, you will still be connected to her through this web even though you will not see or touch her gray and white furry body again. Know this.  It is absolute truth. I have spoken.