This card came to me several years ago when I was exploring old, outdated beliefs with my lovely therapist, Fran.  I’ve been aware of this particularly powerful and needy voice all of my life.  I believe I inherited it from my mother, this part of me who can’t enjoy life because she is WAITING FOR THE OTHER SHOE TO DROP.

The more inner work I do, the more I realize that this voice gets in the way of my living a full and joyful life.  I notice that, after making it and journaling with it (see below), it has much less power to ruin my day(s).

Who are you? I am the one who is afraid to enjoy all the sweetness and lush fullness of life.  I am the one who is certain that something bad is going to happen any minute to destroy my beautiful life.  I am the one who keeps looking out of the corner of my eye for the next disastrous thing to happen.

I am the one who doesn’t trust that life is good.  I am the one who is always worried about the future.  I am the one who can’t/doesn’t/won’t enjoy the abundance that is right in front of me because it all might be taken away from me at any moment.  I am the one who is nervous and anxious all the time, too tense to enjoy life, too focused on what might happen in the future, to enjoy the gorgeousness of this present moment right now.

What do you have to give me? My voice gives you a signal that you are too focused on the future.  My voice, my fear- is a signal to you that you need to breathe yourself back into the present moment.

What do you want from me? I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me that you will always take care of me, no matter what happens.  I want you to reassure me that you will care for and be here for me, always, no matter what.  I want you to tell me (over and over again) that even though bad things happen, there is still a bright side of the road and that you will help me to get there, no matter what happens to me.  I want you to remind me (over and over and over again) to stay in the present moment, and to focus on what IS, RIGHT NOW, instead of focusing on what MIGHT happen in the future.

What about you? Do you have any old beliefs or outdated  thought patterns that you could give voice to with a card?  Go ahead, be brave and make one!  Listen to its wisdom.

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