This is a very powerful card, and working with it brought me MUCH inner growth and awareness.  Here is a poem that I wrote about this once very loud inner voice. Born of ancient wounds, that voice inside of me who says no to living a big, wide, joyful, gorgeous, artful, authentic life.

Born of ancient tears and hiding, That voice within says No you can’t lose weight You will never lose the weight If you lose the weight you won’t be connected to your mother anymore If you lose the weight you will be giving yourself The biggest gift of joy you can give

And that just isn’t done.

Born of earliest lies and fear of pain, That voice within tells me I am not worthy Of joy, Of a big beautiful easy life, Of abundance Of having whatever it is that I want.

I speak to this voice. I scoot my chair close to her and listen to what she says I tell this voice that I understand her, I really get what she is saying to me, Because I do.

She looks me in the eye and some of her sadness is laid to rest.

We discuss her thoughts and ideas. She tells me how she came to be, That she is tired of holding her arms out, so, And blocking this important doorway

She asks me if I really want to cross the threshold that she is
standing in And I say a resounding YES.

She smiles briefly, lowers her arms, sits on the floor.

I could step around her now if I wanted to But I do not. I sit still with her and continue to listen For she has much wisdom to impart.

She is the voice of NO that lives inside of me Her positive intent is to assist me in drawing boundaries, To point out the places Where a NO could really mean YES to my soul To show me there is no shame in a NO That makes me feel good inside.

Her negative potential blocks me from entering the doorway of Joyful life Her negative potential is slowly draining away now The more I listen to her The more she trusts me

Her negative potential is ebbing back to sea And foaming at my naked feet now Are the sparkling waves of

Joy

Wholeness

Presence

YES.