I made this card intentionally to give image to the part of me who refuses to feel anything, is afraid to really feel the messy emotions of life. This part of me often goes numb when confronted with difficult situations and feelings in order to self-protect.

I was never TAUGHT to feel and accept my feelings, but I’m learning this skill now and it’s enriching my life immeasurably.  I wanted to honor this numb part of me anyway, because she really has been (and sometimes still is) an integral part of my life and she isn’t going to go away.

Who are you?
I am the one who is encased in this glass bubble- safe, protected.  I am the one who is safe from the fire, safe and protected from the bubbling rabble of pieces and parts of you that have strong feelings. I am cool and calm and collected, safe in my womb.  No one and nothing can reach me here. 

I am turned away from these angry, sad, fearful, joyful, anguished parts of you.  I don’t want anything to do with them.  They are messy, dirty, bloody, frightening, and I want them to go away.

I am the one who wants to stay in this Numb Bubble and not feel anything.  Ever.  I don’t like feelings.  They are messy and complicated and time-consuming.  I like this bubble. I’ve found that it keeps me safe from my feelings.

What do you have to give me?
I give you protection and safety from the heat of emotions.  I give you numbness to protect you.  My world is not colorful but it is safe.

What do you want from me?
I want you to NOT FEEL anything!  I want you to keep me away from those ragged feelings of yours. But then again… I really, really want you to set me free. It’s really hard to breathe in here!