These cards are discussed during the October Kindred Spirits monthly tele-class in 2010 with Win Griffin, SoulCollage® Facilitator in California, and Anne Marie Bennett, SoulCollage® Facilitator in Massachusetts. This recording is in our Members Only Audio Library.
Cards by Win Griffen
I am the one who is in shock at my diagnosis: Breast Cancer!
I am the one who, amidst the colors of my life curl up in a despair.
I bless my femininity, and caress them gently.
I am the one who has no idea what the future holds.
I am the one who is afraid. I am in the deep hole of depression.
I am the one who desperately wants to climb out of this dark hole
so I can dance again in the light.
I have no assurance that I can.
I am the one who found myself in the darkest alley – alone – I thought.
My angel, though, is right behind me showing me the way to the Light.
I am the one who will choose not to feed my fear
although I cannot see the way to where the jewels are.
I am the one who, giving up fear, is now FURIOUS!
I am soooooo angry.
I am one who rages; who burns my cancer in the fire.
I scream. I growl.
Depression
I am the one who sees no way out. Who cries, “Why God, why me?” I am alone in my agony. I am fading.
I am the one who weeps deep tears. Knowing that even though I feel alone, I am nourished by the humanness of shared tears. I am the one who is healed by the waters – every flowing tear into the river of life.
I am the one who has lost my breasts. I am the one who is grateful to them for taking the cancers away. I am the one who is contemplative; who craves silence, and connection to ancient energy from the rocks in the earth.
Soul Wings
I am the one who, in the bleakest nights, with cancer raging in me, red,
and disguised as a rose, saw the dawn break, saw the moon rise,
saw the feathered friend dance, and had hope.
I am the one who has had three episodes of Breast Cancer. Each time the cancer has been my greatest teacher/guru. I am the one who is free to stand at the top of the rock, rejoicing every day. I am the one who, with or without cancer, flies at the top of the world in the beauty of it’s mountains. I am the one who is so grateful for the journey and for the strength.
am the one who is vital, and alive.
Cards by Anne Marie Bennett
Who are you?
I am the one who has survived fire and storm and famine.
I am the one who has danced in the flaming forest and wrestled with the fierce wild animals of the night.
I am the one who feels the beating of my own precious heart and knows that that is where my strength and courage come from. I am the one who is in touch with my innermost core of power, who allows that power to burn through my fears until I see them for what they are- proud sentient beings who have been sent to protect me. I am the one who sends you mysterious angels after you have faced down the wildness of your own fears.
I am the one who has survived breast cancer, an emotionally deprived childhood, codependent mothering, difficult stepchildren, an alcoholic love relationship, Jeff’s cancer, the deaths of my parents, an emotionally abusive boss.
I am the one who has brought you through it all. Today I am saying to you: look at where you are, on the other side of the fiery drama. In a place of peace and rest, where it is easy and safe for you to sit still and close your eyes and be with yourself. So remember to do that this week, and every week. Sit still, hand over your heart, remembering who you are. Do not mistake the power there is in that.
What do you want from me?
I want you to hold your hand over your own heart, and feel and hear the rhythm of your own authentic power. I want you to know that you can call on me to lead you through the flaming forests, to show you how to sit still and befriend the enemy of your fears.
What do you have to give me?
I give you power, and authority and inner strength to face the wild tigers of your night, whatever they may be.
Please visit this KaleidoSoul page to see Anne Marie’s other cards about her breast cancer journey.